"UTANG NA LOOB"

One of the best reasons of living is knowing that someone is always willing to be with you no matter what is happening. It may be hard times or the best of times. 2012 was never a good year for me actually. Had a lot of unforgettable experiences. One time I asked myself, Do I deserve these things that are happening to me? Why am I suffering when in the first place I've been doing the best I could not to suffer. After all that happen to me, I never expected that someone is going to catch me up. Someone who helped me a lot when I was down. Down in a way that I had no one to cling to despite the fact that I have my family here expected to help me in every way. Some time in September when I experienced the worst experience in my whole life. I was like "What? is this for real? My own brother can do this to me?" IT is so sad to know. Yes. It really is. But we need to expect the fact that not everyone is willing to help you. Not everyone could be there for you especially the times of trouble. You have to be aware that no one can help you except you. No shoulder to cry to except your own shoulders. You have to be strong, yes you really need to. Because in this life we live, no one can be TRUSTED but yourself. Some might show something strange. They may act like they are really happy being with you. Acting like everything they do for you, they do as a favor. They do like not expecting anything in return. But as to my own PATHETIC EXPERIENCE, these people are not real. They are all FAKE. This is one of the reasons why me myself TRUSTS NO ONE except me. Keeping mum despite all the things they are throwing to me. Standing tall despite the insurmountable challenges that are coming along my way. Never wanted to show the world that I am weak enough to be treated such a jerk. My mom never taught me to be a FAILURE. She always tell me "YOU ACT YOURSELF, YOU CANNOT PLEASE EVERYBODY. AS LONG AS YOU DO YOUR PART, LET THEM DO THEIRS". Been so strong for quite some time now. Strong in a way that I over passed all the obstacles that I encountered. No one can drag me down for I know I am a fighter. All the people around me may be fake. They may act like they LOVE and CARE for me but I am not GULLIBLE ENOUGH not to determine who is fake and who is not. The past year. It's been a rough year. I have been thrown something which I do not deserve. I am not perfect I know but I deserve more. 11 pm in the evening when the worst thing happened to me. I was sent away by my brother and her wife. I cried a lot. Yes I did. But after the tears have fallen from my eyes, I stood up and said. "Out of how many billion people in this world, I won't let you ruin my life." Got no choice but to go with my cousin. I have been there for a couple of months. Been helped by her a lot that is why I have a big UTANG NA LOOB to her. I do not know how to pay her. I know I can't but I know I already have done my part to show how thankful I am for what she's done. Today. Been trying to figure out who my real friends are. Someone is helping me again, and I am trying my best not to have an UTANG NA LOOB with them anymore because I never wanted that one day, I will be paying such debt to them for the nth time. STOP BEING SO GULLIBLE GIEO. YOU CAN DO IT YOUR OWN. YOU ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO PERSEVERE THE TESTS OF LIFE. For now, I gave been so strong and I know I will always be strong.

PEBRERO MAIKATLO, NAGASAT NGA ALDAW MO!

By: Gie Peralta

Ania’n a gasat aldaw Pebrero Maikatlo,
Ta iso ti napili aldaw iyaay mo,
Iti sidong managayat nga nagannak mo,
Agnanayon to inda ka itantandudo.

KRISTAL, kenka inda impanagan,
Ta maiyarig ka iti bato kanginginaan,
Ta uray kaanu din to pulos magatadan,
Iti uray siasinuman a kababaknangan.

Ita aldaw a maikatlo bulan iti Pebrero
Nadanunan aldaw panakaipasngay mo
Abrasaem garud a napnuan puso
Ta inikkan na ka manen maysa tawen ni Apo a Diyos tayo.

Maysa laeng daytoy kadagiti rinibo a rason
A pagyamanan iti sagot ti Diyos a nabuslon
Nga ipapaay na kadatayo nga agnanayon
Agyaman ka Kenkuana nga agtaud kaunggan ta pusom.

Ita ta nadanunan manen inka panagkasangay
Amin nga arapaap mo koma ket sumangbay
Nagannak, kabsat gagayyem isuda kenka ket mangtubay
Tapno magun-od mo amin a tarigagay.

Naragsak ken Nagasat nga inka panagkasangay!!!

I. PANIMULA
II. PAGTATALAKAY
III. WAKAS
IV. BIBLIOGRAPIYA

THE BEST CHRISTMAS

December 25, 2011. This is the most memorable Christmas celebration for me. It was the simplest but the best of all the celebrations I ever attended. Not much HANDA but the company of the loving family members really made it very special. Simple gifts given to my nephews and cousins make my Christmas the best!!!!

THANK YOU, I LEARNED!

Feels so sad today due to some minor problems. Minor in a sense that I understand the reasons of my friends for being unsure of attending the upcoming BSIT 2010 First Batch Reunion. I know I don't have the right to get mad at them, but I am just an ordinary guy who also feels pain and sadness if something went wrong especially when the long-time planned union would be cancelled. It's not that I regret in financing our shirts but I just hate the fact that I feel like being left in the ere. Evrytime I call them, 1-2 months before the event, they always say, "sure we can come". But now that it's already a week before the program they are backing out. I think this isn't just right. I know they know that I love them so much, that I always understand them and so do they understand me, but today, I feel so helpless, that I can't help but to think that they are ignoring me! What a feeling is this! I feel sorry for myself! Again I didn't think of the possible consequences. Go lang ako ng go without thinking the possibility of it's cancellation. Is this the effect of being too OPTIMISTIC. I always believe in them, but then again I always fail. I am such a pathetic loser! Loser but not financially. Loser in a sense that I am again ignored by the people I love. I expected a lot, and by this, I learned not to expect too much for the GREATER YOUR EXPECTATIONS THE GREATER THE HURT IT MAY GIVE!!!

NA NAMAN???!!!!!!!

Again and again and again....Why do I feel such crazy feeling? Why am I so affected with it well in fact it's just a simple matter. But they say, it's the simple things that matter. Well, December 15, 2011, I talked to my company here in the shop that I'll be having my day off on the 16th of December, but he said "Sa sabado ka na lang Geo" and I answered him with a question. "Di ba may lakad ka sa sabado? Hindi tayo pwedeng magsabay nyan." "Hindi pa naman sure yun kaya pwede kang mag day off sa sabado." Well, kampante ang kalooban ko na makakapag-off ako last saturday because he told me so. Saturday morning and I have planned everything for that day. It should have been the time for me to buy all the things to be brought home, but unluckily, all plans were cancelled because of him. I really wanted to confront him but I know I don't have the right to do so. I admire him a lot because he is such a man of honor as I think but my perception towards him has changed within that day. OMG, ang sarap manapak. I couldn't explain what I was feeling that day.


Ang pagkaasar na yun ay nadagdagan pa ng pangamba about the upcoming BATCH REUNION when 2 of the batch texted me that they are not sure if they can attend. Grrrrr.....Crazy people!!! You never know what I sacrificed for the event, tapos ngayong malapit na, sasabihin niyo sa akin na hindi pa kayo sure??? that is so unprofessional. It's not that galit ako sa kanila, pero come to think of it. I don't regret for all my expenses because nobody told me to spend much money for the event but, don't they understand what will I feel if the event would not be pursued? I never thought of my own because I do love them but I think I also have the right to be hurt, after all they have promised us they'll be there!!!!

Sleepless night plus freaking boss' mode is equal to madness! This is not the actual feeling I wanted this day, for it is monday. I know that what will I feel today will be the same feeling I am going to have for the rest of the week, hope not! Is it right to ruin your workers' good mode because of your personal problems? That is so unprofessional. To know that she is an educated person but she doesn't know how to deal with her employees. We may have the lower class of living but that doesn't mean it is okay for us to be treated like that, sorry but we also have principle in life and being downed by you will never be tolerated by us especially me. If you have graduated with a 4 year course without any financial catastrophes, well I did but the similarity is, we both finished it! And I think we have a huge difference. Financially speaking, yes you outshine me, but morally, I am sorry to tell but I think I have overcome you with it. I am doing my very best to meet your expectations but you never give credit to my effort and I think you don't deserve to be treated as one good boss! I know you are still my boss and really do wanted to treat you like one but with what you are acting now you really don't deserve it. I am just an ordinary person who commits mistakes and I also need to be understood, but you don't and I do not know the exact reason why. I work like a carabao, with no definite time of closing, no exact salary and I am enduring it without any negative feedback towards you but you seem to be very naive in handling good employees. You are always expecting to be well respected but you yourself don't even respect yourself, how could people around you respect someone like you if that's the case. Come to think of it. A RESPECT IS GIVEN TO THOSE WHO DESERVE IT, TO THOSE WHO WORK FOR IT, how could you do such crazy stuff that hurt somebody's feeling? If you deserve to be HAPPY, what about us, DON'T WE!? oh c'mon!!!!!